Today I feel full

Today was one of the amazingly beautiful fall days that creep into Rexburg Novembers only occasionally. It was warm, smelled incredible and everyone just seemed happy. I was walking to my car and I felt so full of happiness and gratitude. Rexburg is an amazing place to me. It represents almost every phase of my life. I thought about those phases as I was walking. 

Campus = College life, craziness, friends, stress, journalism, finding myself, learning to love people, breakups, excitement of dating, tests, pranks

My neighborhood = being a kid, walking home from elementary school crunching on the leaves, neighbors that have come and gone and the few that have thankfully stayed, night games, caroling, shoveling snow 

Main street = Junior high, which mostly reminds me of moody days spent in my bedroom or eating lunch in the bathroom but then followed by a happy year of learning to talk to people and make friends.

My room = the sad lonely nights of just needing to stay in and cry as well as the happy funny times of sitting on my bed with sisters and cousins and friends and laughing so hard that I cried but for such different reasons.

Smith Park = Which represents all phases of my life. Every phase has had a good experience here. 

These past two months, although sometimes very lonely, have also been some of my most fulfilling. For the first time really ever since I was 17 I am totally single. There is no one on the back burner to potentially date, no one I am interested in, no one that could come back from a previous relationship to attempt dating again, and I am completely at peace with it. It has been this amazing time to completely focus on the girls in my ward and to be their friend and to help them feel how amazing they are. I have never had time like this to just love people. Today as I walked home, I was overwhelmingly happy for this time that I've had. It is so nice to be there for others. It is also so nice to come home everyday to parents that taught me that that is where real happiness comes from.