The writing ache

Today I have my writing ache.

Do you know what I mean?
I don't know how to describe it. It's that feeling when there is too strong of an emotion to express verbally. Too strong even to really understand.

Right now it feels too strong to even be around people. Writing is often kind of a sacred time for me when it's motivated by the writing ache.

It's usually through writing that I learn about myself.
It's usually through writing that I remember just how beautiful the world is.

I feel grateful for spring.
Happy to be in Rexburg.
In love with the friends I've made.
Amazed at modern medicine.
Humbled by people's sacrifices.
Hopeful for my future.
Frightened to move on.
Anxious to see what job lies ahead.
Excited to keep learning.
Proud of myself for loving dating.
Thankful for great guys who have been interested.
Glad to know I can be interested back.
Ecstatic to have my sister move here.
Sad for little losses.
Healing over larger losses.
Worried about struggling friends.
Trusting that it will all work out in the end.

Some posts are just written for the sake of posting.
Other posts are written just for the sake of my soul. I think that's what the writing ache is all about.